Wow it has been almost two years since I last posted on this blog. So many things have happened. Some good, some not so good. I have in many ways abandoned my weight watchers plan. Even while I have continued to pay for my plan. 3 days ago I decided to reset. I have been on a very strict eating regimen trying to get myself off of the sugars and fats that have been taking over my life for the better part of a year. I am up 37lbs from the lowest I have ever been and it is weighing heavily on my mind and body. 37lbs up means I'm back at the 200s. I am unmotivated, nothing fits, and my depression has been making everything even worse. I no longer work out, I no longer eat healthy but I am determined to make that change. I am going back to my meeting today. I am probably going to sit in the back in shame, but at least I will be there. I started this "reset" of eating 4 days ago. I am already down 5lbs. I am happy about that but not excited. This weight loss is a result of a very strict way of eating. This coming Friday I should be back to eating normally. I think at that time I will truly start to get excited about changes.
So to prepare, I think I am going to start a new blog. This one is all about starting over. The challenges will be both new and old. Its about going back and then going forward...this should be interesting...
