So I went to my usual therapy session and had a convo w/ her about my mom!! Turns out that one of the reasons I might have a hard time believing that NO ONE at the gym is going to be looking at me and snickering and making fun of me behind my back, is because as a kid my family (my mom included, and believe me it's true we actually have it on video) used to make fun of me for being fat. I guess even when they stop doing it, it creates all kinds of ingrained issues! Who knew?
Now it wasn't one of those weepy, "why doesn't anyone love me?" moments it was just a quiet, "huh, imagine that" kind of moment but it might explain a lot. I'll see where this "breakthrough" leads me. In the meantime today I got up and busted a groove with my Dance Central. And, my new personal challenge is every other day for four weeks!! That means 4 weeks to get into the habit of exercising and get out of the lazy-butt habit!! It's my very own 28 day rehab!! March 20th here I come!!!
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