I was shocked to see that I had not posted since October. This is my New Year's post. I've been on a crazy coaster of activity, emotions, and life in general. I have not been to a meeting since September I think, I'm not really sure, and have fallen off plan. Well sort of. I mean in all this time I have still been thinking in terms of points, eating less than I did, once upon a time, and generally have kept my weight in the same range. So I'm engaged in what Weight Watchers calls maintenance; but it is time for more. I have to be honest I have lost some of the drive. Not the want of course, but the push I used to feel. I think a large part of that is related to not being back for my meetings. I wonder if the same people are there, or if some have reached their goals and so left, or if like me some have just fallen away? I wonder if my team leader is still there, because I think I would hate it if there was someone else.
I need a jolt of something, I just don't know what it is. I think that this is the time when motivation and inspiration need to hit again. They need to call me up so we can hang out together; because I feel like that drunken person standing on the curb with that confused look on their face like they don't know where they are going or where they have been. Not the best feeling I must say. Today is Friday. The end of the week. I am tired, I have been sick for what feels like most of December into January and I'm not looking forward to all the chores that await me at home. But, I started working out again two days ago, I'm back on plan tracking all of my meals and keep track of my healthy habits, and Sunday is a chance to go back to my meeting and get back on track all the way. The power of positive thinking, the power of positive thinking...If I keep the mantra up, I think I just might do something with myself.
Happy New Year!
ReplyDeleteLike the Winter Solstice it is a time of new beginnings, a rebirth if you will. Too long we've been dormant and now the sun is shining a little earlier each day and setting a little later each night.
You've reached a turning point where instead of saying "eff it" the routines and guidelines are now embedded in your mind. Though you may not be working out consistently or eating as you should, your subconscious is aware of the decisions you are making. You know that maybe you shouldn't have that extra helping or maybe it's better off to walk up two flights of steps instead of taking the elevator.
Keep up the positive thinking and if nothing else start putting up those fabulous pictures of yourself looking like you are the bee's knees because baby you are so worth it!
love you ;)