So September of 2013 was the beginning of ups and downs. I lost the weight I gained over the summer (so hurray) but plateauing and going up and down is becoming the name of the game. Still positive feelings are there. Buried deep down. Struggling to get out. Choking for air, but there nonetheless. I think. I'm happy to say that I've reached Onederland and I've been here for well over a month and even when I go up my body brings me back down and that makes me sooo happy. However I'm not as excited as I thought I would be. I think it's because I'm becoming inconsistent and I know who is to blame. Because, let's face it, it's always easier to blame someone else, so my blame heads to Mother Nature!! This winter has been BRUTAL!! What the hell!! Snow, -0 degree weather, and dark days followed by grey afternoons and even darker nights have lead me on a merry chase when it comes to getting on track and continuing to lose. I can't get it together, I'm tired, my feelings are low and plummeting ever more and I'm questioning EVERYTHING! Seasonal depression is real and it's kicking my butt.
That makes it hard to stay on plan. I want things that are warm and heavy. I don't want cold salads or an abundance of vegetables. I want carbs and meat. Nothing else will do, or at least that's what my stomach says. So I'm at meeting, down 3.8 from two weeks ago and really wanting to get back in the swing of things. Now if only the weather would cooperate.
This weather is sucking the motivation right out of me!! I thought December was bad but January and February has been just as brutal here. I feel your pain.
ReplyDeleteBut, hey, congrats on becoming a permanent resident of one-derland! Whoop!